Didn't sleep well last night. To much salt would probably be the reason why. I had to use the bathroom a whole lot.
Cody over slept too. His alarm sounded at 7:22 Rick woke me up to wake him up at 7:12 why he didn't wake the kid himself. He woke Tyler up screaming at him because he never turned the furnace off. So now the whole house is up way before most of us would like to be.
Still having dizzy spells.. Not sure what is going on with that. I have no medical so I can't go to the doctor. I can't afford to quit since doing so means I loose my ssi and besides I like working I like getting out of the house.
I come to a sad sad conclusion I have no self worth. I "day dream" just before I go to sleep Last night I was dreaming that I had left Rick because he never wants to spend time with me anyway so if I am going to be lonely might as well be lonely alone. Anyway in my "day dream" the only time he wants to even try to get back with me is when I come into money. How sad is that? He would only want me back and want to be the man he should be if I came into money. Not saying that would be true on his part but that is what I feel.
Tiff Just realized that I unfriended her when she went off on me for photo editing one of her pictures. I guess that shows my importance that she didn't notice for a whole two weeks. The back story on that she takes pictures I thought I would be nice and edit one of the nice pictures she took.. SHE FREAKED out on me and not just a little a WHOLE lot. I took her off my friends list no point set myself up for failure. I guess we are talking some but I don't want get her freeking out with me.
Work went well I guess. My head is in this endless fog and I am dizzy. reading on the net it could be related to this neck pain I have been having. If I could get my neck to pop maybe the fog and dizzy spells would end. I keep trying but to no avail.
I was in the front on till which was easy enough. Luke's Girlfriend gave birth so he will be out till the 24th with his new baby. I am taking part of his shift tomorrow. Good news that means extra money for my son's birthday. Bad news I will be on my feet for almost 10 hours. OMG. especially with getting up at 5 am then being there till almost 5 pm I am going to be SOOOOO tired
Things are ok with Rick I guess. He says he plans to spend time with me though he says this a lot with very little to no follow through. Highly disappointing on my part.
Well I have been on this computer long enough maybe go watch some tv before I force my sleep because tomorrow will be forever long.
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