Friday, May 29, 2015

Haters going to hate..

For the last week or so I have been dealing with ignorant hateful people.
Josh Duggar at age 15 molested 4 of his sister and a another nameless child.  His youngest victim looks like may have been 5.  REAL bad I know... I was molested by by own brother though what Frank did to me was far worst..
That said he was a CHILD.  as My perpetrator was a child.. Studies have shown that with therapy MOST (because one size never fits all )never do it again...
http://www.unh.edu/ccrc/pdf/CV171.pdf
Isn't as a society the best we could hope for... to never it happen again...
NOPE they want justice..
In 2003 had this been reported... the only "justice" was therapy kids were not put on the sex offendre list until 2006.
That is what happened in my case and I reported it one year after it had stopped. he stayed in the home. there was no list at all back then.
What of that list.. OMG!!
Since that list started adding children in 2006.  200,000 in the 20 states that use it.  As young as 8 for such minor infractions as taking a Pea outside.  "playing doctor"
to I would call middle of the ground offences
Underage consensual sex with another minor
Sexting
Streaking
to what happened to the Duggar girls to what happened to me.

I would not want my brother on the list.  It is the kiss of death.  Though I hate what he did to me I just wanted him to stop what he was doing.  As far as I know he did.
I hear what of them victims??
what of them.. Did anyone ask them if it was ok to make this so public??
Did anyone ask them if they could publicly linch Josh on their behalf??
Did anyone ask them if they wanted strangers asking them about this personal time of their lives??
Does all these haters REALLY care??
.thehollywoodgossip.com/2015/05/josh-duggar-victims-reliving-the-horror-in-wake-of-public-revela/
if this article is true they didn't want this out there..

I have read how the truth gets twisted.. Some say Josh was 17 when he last touched the girls .. Did you really read the report.. does not say that.. he was actually 18 when that report was made.  they said that the abuse happened over years.. NO it does not say that it happened over 9 months.
As I understand it and with the senator of Arkansas wanting the police chief fired Juvenile records are to be sealed and not to be given to the press and do not qualify under the freedom of information act.  That travesty is going to hurt a lot of people one day because now that it has been ok to do this to josh no no ones child is safe from wrong doing by the police..

most these haters hated them for comments made against gay and transgenders that have been twisted out of context.
“I don’t believe the citizens of Fayetteville would want males with past child predator convictions that claim they are female to have a legal right to enter private areas that are reserved for women and girls.is what she said... that does NOT say transgenders are pedophiles it says Pedophiles will use transgender laws to get at victims tell me they wouldn't !!?!!

Haters want to hate.. haters want to judge.. They judge The parents for not coming forward they went to the elders of their church.. and sorry they are not mandated reporters... and with the list being the kiss of death most parents do not report.. and since haters want to judge next time johnny takes a pea outside they better call the police.. or catch Sue and Sally naked playing doctor they better call the police because by LAW they are now sexual preditors and need to be on that damned list.
 



Wednesday, May 20, 2015

05/20/15

Yep nothing changes... Rick let his mom take pig rines that he bought for himself.  He didn't want her to throw a fit.  I said she does because you let her.  She wont do that with me because I wont put up with it.  When I got up she was taking scissors I put in the kitchen to her room.  I told him about it but he did anything said he would later but yeah.
The only thing that has changed is me... I don't call him I don't text him.  I am at the end of the rope.  We don't really have a real relationship.  He chooses to live alone in the same house as me.  We are more just room mates then husband and wife.  We don't talk about anything important and when the conversation gets serious he leaves.
Our conversations before Fargo were more meaningful they spurred growth and healing now they are trivial conversations I could hold with a stranger.  Sad really.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

OMG!!
last night he told me that once his mom moves out that I have to be prepared for her to move back in.  WTF!! um no!!
I said well in that case we will just save a lot of trouble and I will move out.  She doesn't want me here anyway and she would be more then happy.  
I am so done with that woman.

Friday, May 15, 2015

My mother in law makes me so mad...
The mess she has caused with what ever it is she told the bank..
She tries to tell Rick she said nothing but my guess is from what was going on that day I am sure she told the bank that I was going to kill her dog if I did not give her $150 and that I was going to throw her into the street.  I will never forgive her and I am SO done helping her.  I am beyond done helping her.  Rick talked to the social worker briefly.  I am guessing this is not going to go well he said the woman got indigent and said we should have money put away to help Judy.  FUCK that 1.  You can't put money away the government wont allow it.  2.  I am DONE helping the woman no matter how nice I am she lies about me.  I AM DONE!!
I want us to move into our own place and she can go far away from me.  I am so sick of her.  Did I say I was sick of her.
I HATE her.. I hate that I have to sit at the dinner table with her.  I hate that I have to be anywhere near the woman.
Work was busy we had several large groups come in.  But I kept up and we all did awesome.  I put salad away and all was good.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Been a while since I have come in here.
The last time I posted I was moving out so Annette could move in.
I  moved back a few months later Rick and I were married but nothing change knew it wouldn't nothing or no one ever changes not really.  I think he and Annette were still having some kind of relationship.  I heard him tell her he loved her and there was other signs that makes me think what I think I can't prove it mind you.  She eventually moved and though he says he does not talk to her I think secretly he does.  He said he blocked her but when I was near him a call from her came in.
sad I can't trust any more, more so because of Mike.  Who btw is in prison dumb ass.  Had he not cheated on me I would have protected him from himself and he would have been fine.
My life is still a mess.  Rick has ruined my credit he says he is looking for a job but he never goes anywhere or does anything.
His mom started some bull shit now her money is frozen until she talks to a social worker as to what to do.  They may put her in a nursing home.  I wouldn't mind so much because the woman pisses me off.  She steals from me and no matter how nice I am to her she talks bad about me behind my back.  So now I can't pay my rent.  until her money comes back.  I can't do anything.
This all sucks.
Yesterday was bad Rick helped himself to food I bought that was in my room then he gave some to his mom with out asking me when I got mad about it he slammed his had into my light switch as he was leaving and broke it.  JERK!!
I sleep alone he has his own room in the basement where he spends all his time.  I don't matter we did start having meals together as a family.