I am a mix of feelings.
I am not getting married for the third time now.  The first time was canceled because he was not ready... Canceled the second time because we had to use the money on his  EX..Canceled the third time because we were moving and wouldn't have the money to go through with it.  Canceled this time because if we get married he looses medical assistance.
 His words "I will marry you but I wont live long"
 HOW CAN I MARRY HIM WHEN HE SAYS THAT KIND OF CRAP?
Though he eats junk and smokes so with or with out medical he wont live long.
The bad... I am stuck with my EX husband's name I didn't change it after our divorce because I was so to get married right away.
The good... He is not really into me anyway.  We barely spend time with each other as a couple.  He would rather be along or hang with HIS friends alone.  NO matter how I try to get him to WANT to spend time with me the fact is he does not want to... HE IS NOT THAT INTO ME....
He is not into me enough to want to get married.
He is not into me enough to make time for me...
He is not that into me that he wants to change anything for me...
I am here to be his cook ... his maid and help him pay his expenses.
why do I stay... not ready to be alone... To complicated to find my own place.